Name may ling
DOB 28th july
Email chanclarise@gmail.com
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-Sunday, February 27, 2005-
exhausted
another tiring day. feel so relaxed now. mum's kinda worried abt my work. it's a stressful career realli. but i know i'd b able to make it! God will see my hard work and the tears i've sowed in. my work is so much like this christian race that we run. sometimes we walk and walk and we dun seem to see any progress and breakthru. but we never know when the breakthru will come.
but i thank God for the friends around me who are always encouraging me and praying for me, people who believe in me that i'd succeed. :) that's one compelling reason why i'd never want to give up.
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-Friday, February 25, 2005-
a day of ups and downs
kinda having mood swing today. actualli i feel sleepy cos i didn't sleep last night, went night jogging and after that, i cannot fall asleep.
roadshow is on as usual and we [me, jimmy, daus and sheldon] gathered at mac before we started. and jimmy kept disturbing me abt the 'crumb' thing. argh. anyway, i have had my share of 'revenge'. hehe. rushed off for 2 appointments.. i felt so tired at 7.30pm.. my tears were almost coming out. i felt so so so so so lethargic! God pls strengthen me.. everything's just too heavy for me to take alone. i just feel like crying. the stresses and burdens and pressures all around are just so great. God, let me not focus on them, let me to learn how to focus on U.
the journey home was like the longest ever for me. it's like 10pm now and it feels like 3am. super sleepy. and i feel burnt out somehow. but i believe i can go on de! pray for me pls friends. God bless ya. :)
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-Thursday, February 24, 2005-
funnie day
mani funnie things today. feel very light hearted. hehe.
met someone funnie today. someone i met at roadshow.
hmmz den today jimmy and i had appointments at taka at the same time. hmm and something funnie happened. haha.
went for night jog just now! fun and cooling. :)
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abit down
good morning!
actualli something's been bothering me for realli long and i've been trying to handle it and overcome it. but now, i feel that i can't handle it anymore! :( kinda confused, sad-ded and all.. haiz.
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dr ulf
just got back from dr ulf's seminar. good!
went to the office in the afternoon after mah lunch appointment.. hmm the atmosphere in office weird weird de. just dun feel good today. seems to me everyone is weird today lo. :(
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-Tuesday, February 22, 2005-
happie tuesday!
no more happy chinese new year, valentine's day le ma.. so Happy Tuesday to U! Lame? actualli today is a happie day for me.
realised that i didn't blog for like 3-4 days le. coz.. internet explorer is mad. and, last night i couldn't log on to mah bloggie. :(
dah last time i blogged was 18th..friday! lemme see, weekend was rather busy. mainly cos of a case whereby i had problem getting the quotation. haiz. had to ask daus to print for me, but got some errors, den gotta ask jimmy to print for me.
met celine jie on saturday nite after i got mah quotation from jimmy. she's very happy, and i am happy for her too. 幸福的女人永远是最美的喔！！！ ：）she treated me to sushi. thankies jie jie!!! lurve ya!
oh yes, finalli got my jounral from cedric. hmm, but he didn't pass me the devotion notes!! ahhhhh. cedric! anyway, thanx for holding on to mah journal.. and it's brown, NiCe!!!! love it!!!
sunday i couldnt sleep well. monday very sleepy. calling was good last night! had fun. janice bought nice nice choc biscuits! it's actualli cereal cup from lotte. nice nice nice!! not too sweet, size just nice, cup so cute worz!!! waha. talked to jan abt mah stresses and i am so glad she's in office. someone to listen to me. haiz. thankies jan jan!
anyway. i was saying today is HAPPY TUESDAY. hee why happie. cos happie lo! i love it when i am totally focused on something. God take away every distraction, i just wanna be focused. focused. focused!!
oh yea, jan gimme eat chocs today again. heezzzzzz
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-Friday, February 18, 2005-
hmmmz
just realise that there's something wrong with mah blog. the photos got jumbled up. nevermind.. i'm not going to do anything cos i am realli tired now. my eyes are so tired. i feel like sleeping, but i can't cos i still needa make calls.
was yawning during the morning meeting today. it was fun, daus and jimmy showed their cpf presentation, kinda funnie. haha but learnt alot lo.
jan bought me dark chocs today! thanksssss!!!! :)
james burnt the jay chou cds for me and even came to paya lebar to pass to me today!! thankxxxxxxx!!!!! :)
after my appointment, i met up with grace and siree at causeway. went to buy shoes with grace. haaa.. she very cute, the shoes too. heez. actualli took a pic of her with those shoes.. will upload laterz.. now very sleepy. *yawnz.
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-Thursday, February 17, 2005-
finally!
heez.
finally my internet explorer is okie, can use le!
finally AIMS 2 and 3 are over!yay!
it's quite a fun day. went for AIMS 3 today and met yun for breakfast. today office very crowded wor.. almost couldn't find a place to sit down. anywayz, i wore my new pink stripey shirt today! happiez. *haaa.
i hope my internet explorer will be fine always. i pray that my lappy will never go crazy again. pls pls pls! haah
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-Tuesday, February 15, 2005-
happie valentine's day
not such an energetic day.
haha. cos i slept oni 2 hours the night before! couldn't sleep so i logged on and saw firdaus online. we chatted abt work and some stuff until 5am! interesting! hehe. we decided to work harder and to encourage each other to work more.
i almost fell asleep during the meeting cos i was so tired and mah eyes were so dry.
met mah darlings for a special friendship day celebration. umm. not so special? not so celebrational too. i met up with na first cos ra needs to do cellgroup stuff. i ordered the lunch set.. finally have a chance to eat their lunch set meal! haha. na ate the texas ribs thingy. we were so so so so full. after our makan and some chat, we left and we went to OAMC. ahhhh my dream stripey-mandarin-color shirt. want so much to get it but i guess better not. it's not a neccesity. just a very strong want. heez.
guess where we went next. crystal jade. hmmm.. today the chinese-and-the-western combination huh. but i was too full le, so i drank soya bean milk. ra ate prawn noodles.. ooo looks nice. haha. ummm and na and ra ordered a mango pudding.. hehe, na went to do something to the pudding and made it look more like.. umm, nvm.
man, i was so sleepy the whole day. hahaz. i forced myself to keep awake til 11pm so that i can revert back to normal sleeping time. but i knocked out at 10.30pm. and woke up today at 9am. yay!!!! okie i have to go to work le. tataz.
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-Sunday, February 13, 2005-
瓦解
nice song. by 南拳媽媽. jay sang this song during his recent concert too. i love this part of the song "我一個人在角落 沒有妳陪伴的我 連寂寞都笑我太墮落". how true. sometimes when u're so down, even the lousy situation u're in seems to be jeering at u too. so dun get down, get up and OUT!
瓦解 南拳媽媽
詞：彈頭 曲：周杰倫 編曲：鍾興民 製作人：周杰倫
D F#m Bm
宇豪:說著笑著的午後 鐘聲一直在停留
D Bm
風聲靜靜躺著在誘惑
G F#m Bm
我一個人在角落 沒有妳陪伴的我
G A
連寂寞都笑我太墮落
D D7 G A
彈頭:廣場旁邊的煙囪 煙霧瀰漫你面容
F#m Bm G
我悄悄背頌妳的溫柔 喝著加溫後的啤酒
F#m Bm G A
這樣唯美的鏡頭 是否只存在故事之中
F Dm
豪+彈:在你的身後 時間把過去都帶走
Bb F Gm C
時間把鏡頭帶走不假思索 回憶不放手
F Dm
好想再跟妳牽著手 牽著妳給我的溫柔
Bb F Gm
哭過以後眼淚還是不停的流
F Dm
在妳的身後 時間把畫面都帶走
Bb F Gm C
時間把鏡頭帶走不假思索 回憶不放手
F Dm
好想再跟妳牽著手 牽著曾有過的溫柔
Bb F Gm C
哭過之後眼淚還是不停的流
F Bbm F
遇見彩虹 遇下過之後 街角出現彩虹
Bbm C F
淚流乾之後 有彩虹
after i played this on mah guit, i realise that there's a i-dunno-how-to-explain kinda change in the key from the verse to chorus [haaa.. i dunno how to explain cos me not a music student..]. but it's realli cool and nice. try it!
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presence of God
what's the name of today's worship song ah? it's so nice.. the presence of God just came and touched mah heart. i kept crying and i know it's God!
love everything. praise, worship, presence of God and of cos the wonderful sermon. long, but really convicting. the last point impacted me the most. big people have big capacity! think i realli needa stretch mahself more. not just in ministry, but also in work. honestly, i've been succumbing to the circumstances too easily. i shld get better everyday, shldn't i? instead i chose to give up and tink that i am just not good enuff. i'd succeed in mah career!
met up with brother gab, sis sher and some members after service. i love the way brother gab talk. it's so wise and he is just so humble. u'd just love this great man of God. wanted to talk to him but he disappeared. hmmz. had dinner with mah beloved cg members and man, i realise that sylvia is very good in talking. haha.
recently alot of strangers adding me on msn. and i dun even know who are they.. erm, so i kinda confused and deleted some of them cos i realli have no idea. but dun worry, if i know u, i'd not delete u away de. hehez.
ooooo.. lok sze gonna teach me how to play 白色婚礼 on the piano, how cool?! but i tink have to wait after her recital is over. *excited.
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-Friday, February 11, 2005-
back to You
God, life is so weird without U. i can run, but i'd still run in U, around U, and ultimately back to U.
'letting go. and letting God.' do u tink i can do it? do i tink i can make it?
realli miss the presence of God. i am not myself these days definitely. acting weird, reacting weird and all. i dun hate myself, but i hate the world things i do.
life is crap without God in it. knowing God, loving God, doing what God wants me to do is a journey. i've learnt alot. i've fallen mani times, but i shall pick mahself up again.
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constantine
it's a crap show. the effects were good and they succeeded in scary people using sudden movements and sounds. eh, keanu is cool as usual and very charming and the female lead is pretty too. but the story line is kinda crappy. ahh. go watch it. u may love it.
yestie was kinda boring. so met up mah colleagues at cafe cartel for some drinks and crap. lalala. den headed for BK cos daus wanna makan. den the movie. after the movie.. jimmy looked like his gonna KO anytime. daus decided to head home on his bike.. so left the 3 of us, me, celine and jimmy. went to chinatown for food..in the end sat there til like 4 plus close to 5am. thank God we met Dave there and he drove me home. wahaaaaz. pretty tiring day. and found that that jimmy is another crappy guy. =_="" my head nearly burst from his recurring questions of ‘为什么’ ‘这样是好还是不好呢？’ ‘你觉得呢？’
slept til like 3pm today. wat a day. feel like eating steamboat when zhen told me she has steamboat tonight! argh!
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craving for some steamboat!
woke up abt 3pm today and got an sms from shuzhen saying she's not working.. called her back but no reply! so i sms her back and asked her where is she.. after that realised that she will be having steamboat at night with her cellgroup. *sad. i no steamboat. no steamboat for this year's CNY yet.
anyway, i sent a very ridiculous sms to jimmy so he called back. he says 3-person steamboat very boliao so i guess no steamboat again. alright, den i met him up to buy firdaus' birthday tie! bought a nice and cute and colorful one for him. he'd love it! after that, we went to crystal jade for dinner. so weird huh, me going to a chinese restaurant for food? ummmm. anyway, i ordered porridge. oh the soya bean milk is NICE.
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-Thursday, February 10, 2005-
happie new yr day 2
mah maternal relatives coming to mah place today to bainian. so at home againz!
daus confused the place where we're going to watch movie. told me lido last night and plaza sing today. later we confirmed that we're going to plaza sing to watch Constantine.
mah cousin came with her boyfriend today.. the guy looked so familiar. the next moment, i was shouting 'jessman!'. jessman, my last time cg member, is mah couz's boyfriend. the world is so small. momentarily, there was a commotion in dah living room. interesting. and they had been together for about a year.ummm.
it's a warm, humid, boring day. ahhhh
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i can't sleep
it's 2.36am le. can't sleep. lying there for like 2 hours but i kept tossing and turning. why.
i feel so super energetic now. aiz, too much rest and public holidays always seem to make mah bio clock go hay-wire. lalalala. but i love the serenity of the nights. so quiet and coolin. and i have no idea why my windows media player ain't working. gotta restart mah lappie.
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-Wednesday, February 09, 2005-
happieeee new yeeeeear!!
i slept at 3am last night. haha. woke up this morning at 10plus to help mah mum with some cooking. wow,been so long since i cooked something. hahaz.
as usual. new year is kinda boring, mah uncle is here le but not the rest of the relatives. so guess what, i took photos to kill time. . i'm wearing a new top. i love it!
it's a boring day. but also a scary day. i cried. someone kept hurling insults at me over the msn. it's so hurting. no point arguing. just keep quiet. i dun even know this person.
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-Tuesday, February 08, 2005-
dilemma
"a true friend sees the pain in ur eyes when everyone else is fooled by ur smile"
saw mah friend's msn nick. how true.
sometimes even the closest people around me do not know how i feel and what i am hiding. i am not exacly hiding, i just do not know how to explain how i feel. and who is the right person. recently, i got into a fix. i am still in it now. i need someone to help me get out of it.
God help me. i dun wanna be so easily affected by my feelings anymore. my dreams, my visions are all going blur becos of my emotions. let me be focused. i wanna be clear and be sure of what i want and what i am heading for. i can only live each day once. make each day count.
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i keep tinking of u
i keep tinking of u.
it's making my boredom today even harder to endure.
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sooo bored wor!
it's new yr's eve and there's realli nothing much to do. woke up at abt 1pm today. hmm,switched on mah lappy. listened to music, chat abit. washed the bathroom, helped mah mum with some household chores and cleaned mah table, dressing table.. copying music into mah lappy since it's so squeaky clean with almost nothing inside. and now it's oni 6pm!!?? i'm bored to tears lo.
nothing to do at home.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
wunder when will my gor transfer all mah files back to mah lappy and install ms office? all mah songs are in his lappy. hmmz. and all mah pics too!! i must realli take care of lappy from now on. no more sending him away for repair. life without music is total emptiness. and God created music definitely.
ah yes, havent been writing songs too. hmm. now tinking shld i d/l jukebox, cos i used to use that to record mah songs. my one-song-a-week resolution.. :( my life is quite messy now. everything's pretty stuck and messed up. it's feb?! i dun wanna let mahself down and people who care for me down. i'd take a good CNY break and den i'm off to working hard again. it's not good to rest too long.
valentine's day is coming wor. :) how are u celebrating it? well, it's also friendship day. heez
and still, i am BORED. now.
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happie new yr's eve's eve and happie b-day celine jiejie!
i woke up at 1pm plus today wor. so sleepy.. cos reached home at 4am plus this morning.
yesterday was a long day for me and i concluded that my stamina is abit weak. hahaa. i met shuzhen at 2plus to replace her atm card [was eaten up by the atm machine!!]. after waiting for like an hour in the bank, the guy at the counter told us that she cannot replace her card, cos she dun have her ic with her! *saddedz. so we walked to her place to find her bank book instead.. and cannot find!! guess what, shuzhen took her work pass, and we headed for the 201 posb branch. hehe, not so strict there, so we got it replaced. yippee!
it was already like 4 plus so we took a cab down to orchard, cos i needa buy celine jie's birthday pressie. and i haveno idea what to buy! and jimmy can't mit earlier to go with me. thank God for shuzhen, we decided to get levis' voucher for her. and shuzhen brought me to taka to get a choco fudge cake! *yummiz. shuzhen left at abt 6pm to go yun's house. jimmy was supposed to mit me at 6pm. den he say will be late, 6.20pm. in the end, he reached near to 7pm! argh. nvm, so we went up to kbox to put the cake there first. after that, we went to cafe cartel to makan. later, jie, cles and ken joined us too.
the singing session was fun, we sang from 8pm to abt 4am. heez. we celebrated jie's birthday at 12midnight. she's kinda surprised..heee. supposed to sing til 5am but the system kinda hanged there. so we left.. anyway, i was almost totally knocked out. so sleeeeeepy! tank God when i reached the main road, there was a cab waiting for me. haha.
i hope tonight got some programmes too.. dun wanna stay at home on new year's eve ah!
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-Sunday, February 06, 2005-
my laptop is back
yes, it made it in time for chinese new year. :)
and the funnie thing is, the repair shop can't find anything wrong with it. =_="'
and the funnier thing is, my laptop recovered by itself. these were the problems we had before sending it away:
1)faulty CD-ROM drive [cannot play disk properly. unable to detect any CD 90% of the time]
2)faulty keyboard [the 'Ctrl', 'Alt' and 'S' keys were held down by itself]
3)the search window kept popping up by itself [i mean the windows very own search window, not cos of some internet search or virus rubbish]
4)lots of popups when surfing the net
5)cannot run diskcheck when starting up the laptop, as it'd automatically cancel the diskcheck [becos some of the keyboard keys were held down by itself, and since it says 'press any key to cancel diskcheck', so... u know?]
yes yes. such obvious problems. big problems. but the repair shop did not detect anything!
i took the laptop home today. and yes. all the problems are gone. and amazingly, the CD-ROM can run all the disks i put inside today. erm. it's very phenomenal i must say.
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-Saturday, February 05, 2005-
what's wrong with me?
i wish i know. i wish i could rectify everything. i am tired. literally.
stressed and discouraged to the point that i completely switched off today. my boss was very encouraging.. but i just couldn't feel the energy in me. felt like a complete idiot somehow. :(
tmr will b a better dae.
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-Wednesday, February 02, 2005-
'will-ing' myself to be positive
sounds like a contradicting statement. willing. will-ing. i wanna will myself to be positive sounds like i am making myself do it, so it becomes not so willing after all. so does the word 'willing' realli mean willing or unwilling or half-way between willing and unwilling or it's willing in a sense that it's a self-motivated action instead of an other-motivated action?
i'm mad.
yesterday was the worst day of my life in 2005 so far. let that be the worse ever for my life pls! never felt so down and frustrated and outraged in my life before. i nearly broke down in the office.. well, i didn't. went somewhere to cool down. sometimes it scares u and disappoints u to know that the person u hang out with and call 'good fren' just suddenly treats u like rubbish. and eating ur ego food? just to make herself happier? puts u down and tinking that it's right just becos.. it's a 'good fren'? u get what i mean? total shock. total sadness. partly it's my fault i guess. i trust people too easily sometimes and get myself so hurt.
was alone buying stamps at post office after training. and my boss kenneth was kind enough to come down and talk to me. he's not just a boss, but also a 'cellgroup leader' kind of character in my work life. just like brother gab. altho i didn't feel totally fine after that, but i felt more positive.
boss says monday go for new yr celebration! yay! go karaoke wor.
supposed to do some calling in office this morning.. hee, but i woke up abit late. den gotta do some spring cleaning later. so will go office later ba! got appt in the late afternoon. i realli wanna do well for this year. january is gone. february be a good month pls! :)
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