-Saturday, March 19, 2005-

i'm better

been kinda up and down, confused, dazed, stressed and all for the past few weeks. i still remember there was a day i was so down, and sick, and i just prayed and cried to God. i know God will make a way for me.

kinda sorted things out. i guess i needa focus on what i realli set out to do. sometimes i get distracted easily. emotional things especially, interpersonal relations, all gets me down if they dun go well. i guess i am somecone who needs to relate to people all the time. i need to talk! sometimes i just can't find the right one to talk to. the right person to give me the best, most unbiased, frank yet not hurting advice. i know there're lots of people who're always willing to listen, but den, i guess sometimes i am just not too comfortable and so trusting to share anymore. it takes alot to trust someone u know? and yet it takes just one small tiny little stupid thing to spoil the trust.

i know u know what i mean.

thank you God for all the good friends and buddies and pals u have put in my life. someone once told me that friendship is seasonal. is that realli true? somehow i believe it's true, but somehow i dun like it. people come people go right? there're also friends who dun seem so close anymore but i know they care for me lots. and there're friends who're nice sometimes and nasty sometimes. hmmm. so weird. but God u're still the best.

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